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Alec White | Avatar - Gamma
Perhaps you should talk to me if you want to know more. Just a small thought... though, I shall leave you with some advice, which you should probably follow in these times...
Play nice.
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and i see that it’s closed.. o_o
fill me in.
There’s a new rp :}
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MUSHU, AWAKEN!
*CLIP, CLAP, CLOP* …I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
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YOU JUST SAY THE WORD AND IM THERE.
Mushu…
VENGEANCE WILL BE MINE! *EPIC GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRRRR*
MUSHU! These are the Fa guardians. They…?
…protect the family.
And you, oh demoted one.
I… ring the gong.
Thats right now, wake up the ancestors…
*sigh* one family reunion coming right up. ALRIGHT PEOPLE *SLAP GONG* LOOK ALIVE YOU’VE WENT WAY PAST THE BEAUTY SLEEP THING NOW, TRUST ME.
MUSHU, AWAKEN!
*CLIP, CLAP, CLOP* …I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
…
YOU JUST SAY THE WORD AND IM THERE.
Mushu…
VENGEANCE WILL BE MINE! *EPIC GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRRRR*
MUSHU! These are the Fa guardians. They…?
…protect the family.
And you, oh demoted one.
I… ring the gong.
MUSHU, AWAKEN!
*CLIP, CLAP, CLOP* …I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
…
YOU JUST SAY THE WORD AND IM THERE.
Mushu…
VENGEANCE WILL BE MINE! *EPIC GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRRRR*
MUSHU! These are the Fa guardians. They…?
…protect the family.
MUSHU, AWAKEN!
*CLIP, CLAP, CLOP* …I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
…
YOU JUST SAY THE WORD AND IM THERE.
Mushu…
VENGEANCE WILL BE MINE! *EPIC GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRUMBLE GRRRR*
MUSHU, AWAKEN!
*CLIP, CLAP, CLOP* …I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
…
YOU JUST SAY THE WORD AND IM THERE.
MUSHU, AWAKEN!
*CLIP, CLAP, CLOP* …I LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIVE!
It really is. I cant believe that quite a few people deactivated.
I have just noticed that at least three people deactivated. It sucks. And lots of people are less and less active. Well, some people already have classes, I’m sure that doesn’t help…
The tragedies of real life :’(
At least the RP isn’t dead! I’m sure some people have just a lot to do at the moment, that’s why they can’t be online much.
^TRUFAX!
It really is. I cant believe that quite a few people deactivated.
I have just noticed that at least three people deactivated. It sucks. And lots of people are less and less active. Well, some people already have classes, I’m sure that doesn’t help…
The tragedies of real life :’(
“Why did you sign up for the extra lessons?” Slowly her arms drop back down to her sides as she looks at him, still utterly confused.
“Did you not listen to what I said? For you, silly.” He says with a sigh as he looks at her. “I did it for you, because I thought it would make things easier… less difficult. I didn’t want you to get into trouble because I wouldn’t follow what you’d say to me, so… I tried to do it myself.”
“…Alec.” She says very softly and slightly hoarse. “Why the hell would you want to try to even do it like I did? It’s clear I was wrong, you know?” She runs a hand through her hair and then tugs on the ends slightly. “I don’t understand why you love me, really. I still think you love that little girl from dinner many years ago.”
“Because I thought I was wrong. I took a chance and I trusted in you and what you said, about growing up and all of that. It was harder than I thought it would be… and it even left them baffled when I wouldn’t break despite everything. That’s when I knew that I just had to break you instead, even if it hurt. I guess you can say I got some backbone from it.” He chuckles softly. “Its still you, fool. I’ve said this a thousand times.”
“No, I’m serious… I am not good for you. You, you’re a leader here. People look up to you, look to you for guidance and knowledge. I’m your downfall and I cannot be that. I refuse. As much as I love you, I cannot hold you back from what you’re destined to do. You deserve to be a hero. You really and truly do… I can’t aide you in that. I just can’t.” She says with a heavy sigh, feeling her eyes continuously stinging.
“I’m not doing it without you.” He says simply.
“You’re going to have too.” She folds her arms across her chest and looks away from him.
“No I don’t. I refuse to do it, if you’re not here with me. If you loved me like you said you did, you would understand that. I would make any sacrifice for you… you do know this, right?”
“Why did you sign up for the extra lessons?” Slowly her arms drop back down to her sides as she looks at him, still utterly confused.
“Did you not listen to what I said? For you, silly.” He says with a sigh as he looks at her. “I did it for you, because I thought it would make things easier… less difficult. I didn’t want you to get into trouble because I wouldn’t follow what you’d say to me, so… I tried to do it myself.”
“…Alec.” She says very softly and slightly hoarse. “Why the hell would you want to try to even do it like I did? It’s clear I was wrong, you know?” She runs a hand through her hair and then tugs on the ends slightly. “I don’t understand why you love me, really. I still think you love that little girl from dinner many years ago.”
“Because I thought I was wrong. I took a chance and I trusted in you and what you said, about growing up and all of that. It was harder than I thought it would be… and it even left them baffled when I wouldn’t break despite everything. That’s when I knew that I just had to break you instead, even if it hurt. I guess you can say I got some backbone from it.” He chuckles softly. “Its still you, fool. I’ve said this a thousand times.”
“No, I’m serious… I am not good for you. You, you’re a leader here. People look up to you, look to you for guidance and knowledge. I’m your downfall and I cannot be that. I refuse. As much as I love you, I cannot hold you back from what you’re destined to do. You deserve to be a hero. You really and truly do… I can’t aide you in that. I just can’t.” She says with a heavy sigh, feeling her eyes continuously stinging.
“I’m not doing it without you.” He says simply.
“Why did you sign up for the extra lessons?” Slowly her arms drop back down to her sides as she looks at him, still utterly confused.
“Did you not listen to what I said? For you, silly.” He says with a sigh as he looks at her. “I did it for you, because I thought it would make things easier… less difficult. I didn’t want you to get into trouble because I wouldn’t follow what you’d say to me, so… I tried to do it myself.”
“…Alec.” She says very softly and slightly hoarse. “Why the hell would you want to try to even do it like I did? It’s clear I was wrong, you know?” She runs a hand through her hair and then tugs on the ends slightly. “I don’t understand why you love me, really. I still think you love that little girl from dinner many years ago.”
“Because I thought I was wrong. I took a chance and I trusted in you and what you said, about growing up and all of that. It was harder than I thought it would be… and it even left them baffled when I wouldn’t break despite everything. That’s when I knew that I just had to break you instead, even if it hurt. I guess you can say I got some backbone from it.” He chuckles softly. “Its still you, fool. I’ve said this a thousand times.”
“Why did you sign up for the extra lessons?” Slowly her arms drop back down to her sides as she looks at him, still utterly confused.
“Did you not listen to what I said? For you, silly.” He says with a sigh as he looks at her. “I did it for you, because I thought it would make things easier… less difficult. I didn’t want you to get into trouble because I wouldn’t follow what you’d say to me, so… I tried to do it myself.”
“I would rather be dead than fight for a bunch of people I know nothing about. My people meant something to me and they still do. These kids who gave up their lowly pathetic lives to come here don’t need me and I don’t want them. I would rather be dead. If I ever figure out a way to end my life again, I will do it in a heartbeat. I thought I had a reason to be here when I met you again, but how wrong was I… We’re nothing for one another anymore! Nothing.” Her voice breaks as she yells at the top of her lungs, tears forming in her eyes.
“That’s where you’re wrong, Brielle! You don’t see it, do you?! You don’t understand. You never ever understand and I always have to be the fool who fucking spells it out for you!” He yells at the top of his voice. “You… and your need for power… take it. Fucking take it. I don’t want it. You know what I wanted? I wanted you to at least care about me. To forget about yourself and care for another fucking person for once. You don’t know what i’ve done in the week that you’ve gone, but you know what? I did it for you. FOR YOU! Not for power, not for the greater fucking good, not to become neutral, not even for me, but for you. And here you are, saying I mean nothing to you. Thanks. Fucking thanks, Brielle.”
His words come at her in slaps, one right after another. The longer he talks, the harder it hurts and the heavier she feels herself sink down too. As he finishes, the tears flow more and she can’t even fight for her selfish ways anymore. There is no justification, even if the one man she let into her life ruined her heart for good. Alec was right, as always. Rendered completely speechless, she turns on the spot and looks up to the moon to inhale something into her lungs. The sharpness she feels only cuts her more until she can’t take it any longer. “…I’m sorry.” With her words being spoken, she begins to walk away from him, wiping her face furiously.
He can still feel himself recovering from his outburst, though when he finally hears those two words he can’t help but to calm himself down. He looks at her in her state and he can see right there that she means it. Something in him snaps inside and he pursues her in a moment’s notice. He reaches out and he grabs onto her wrist tightly before he spins her around, and without even a moment’s hesitation he pulls her right in and he presses his lips to her own passionately. He can feel her tears drip down onto his own cheeks as he presses right into her, but in a moment he pulls away.
“Unfortunately… he’s right about something. Caring is, and always will be, my downfall. Nothing you can ever do or say will make me love you any less… not one thing.”
“I am so so sorry, Alec. I am… I can’t always help myself. I built this wall around myself thinking—” Her words are at a loss when his lips touch to her own and she can taste the salt from her tears as she kisses him back. Pulling her wrist from his grasp, she moves her arms around his neck, afraid to let go. Though, his lips pull away from her’s and she bites her lip to hopefully slow the tears by focusing on something else. When he mentions that he loves her though, new tears form and stream down her red stained cheeks.
“The only downfall will be because you care, we will all win. Because we have you, we will win.” She sniffles a bit before giving him a soft half smile. “I love you too, Alec.”
“Please tell me you mean that, Brielle…” He says softly as he leans his forehead against her own. “Please tell me that I am not just dreaming here, and that the extra lessons and work I signed myself up for were worth it this week. Tell me that you care… that’s all I want, is for someone to actually care.” He can feel her tears run on his cheeks once more and he sighs as he pulls away. He brings a hand up to cup her face and he wipes her tears with his thumb. “Tell me that this, in the end, will be worth it. Please, tell me that.”
“I don’t know, honestly. I don’t know if I’ll be worth it for you or if I am even good for you. Though, I do know that I do love you. I am so afraid to let you in though… I know you’re not him. I know that, but I need to learn to trust in someone else besides myself.” She feels him wipe away old tears as fresh ones come along. “I will try, for you, I will. I can’t believe… Why did I assume everything wrong about you? Why can’t I just accept that you’re good for me?”
“It takes time… its baffled them, you know? In all these extra lessons… its been the worst week of my life, Brielle, but it was worth it, really. I learned a lot of things, and they didn’t break me down like they wanted. It just left me exhausted, really. Nothing more…”
“What do you mean, Alec? I am a bit confused?” She wipes her face free of all tears as she looks at him.
“Well… to do with lessons, I signed up for a few extra classes, mostly to do with umm… well, that doesn’t matter, but the Professors had me doing more lessons than usual too. They said its to try and make me more… neutral? But it wasn’t exactly a nice stroll through the park… it hurt a lot, actually. But I refused to do it, and it baffled them. It was all rather strange… I don’t know whether its a good thing or a bad thing.”
“I would rather be dead than fight for a bunch of people I know nothing about. My people meant something to me and they still do. These kids who gave up their lowly pathetic lives to come here don’t need me and I don’t want them. I would rather be dead. If I ever figure out a way to end my life again, I will do it in a heartbeat. I thought I had a reason to be here when I met you again, but how wrong was I… We’re nothing for one another anymore! Nothing.” Her voice breaks as she yells at the top of her lungs, tears forming in her eyes.
“That’s where you’re wrong, Brielle! You don’t see it, do you?! You don’t understand. You never ever understand and I always have to be the fool who fucking spells it out for you!” He yells at the top of his voice. “You… and your need for power… take it. Fucking take it. I don’t want it. You know what I wanted? I wanted you to at least care about me. To forget about yourself and care for another fucking person for once. You don’t know what i’ve done in the week that you’ve gone, but you know what? I did it for you. FOR YOU! Not for power, not for the greater fucking good, not to become neutral, not even for me, but for you. And here you are, saying I mean nothing to you. Thanks. Fucking thanks, Brielle.”
His words come at her in slaps, one right after another. The longer he talks, the harder it hurts and the heavier she feels herself sink down too. As he finishes, the tears flow more and she can’t even fight for her selfish ways anymore. There is no justification, even if the one man she let into her life ruined her heart for good. Alec was right, as always. Rendered completely speechless, she turns on the spot and looks up to the moon to inhale something into her lungs. The sharpness she feels only cuts her more until she can’t take it any longer. “…I’m sorry.” With her words being spoken, she begins to walk away from him, wiping her face furiously.
He can still feel himself recovering from his outburst, though when he finally hears those two words he can’t help but to calm himself down. He looks at her in her state and he can see right there that she means it. Something in him snaps inside and he pursues her in a moment’s notice. He reaches out and he grabs onto her wrist tightly before he spins her around, and without even a moment’s hesitation he pulls her right in and he presses his lips to her own passionately. He can feel her tears drip down onto his own cheeks as he presses right into her, but in a moment he pulls away.
“Unfortunately… he’s right about something. Caring is, and always will be, my downfall. Nothing you can ever do or say will make me love you any less… not one thing.”
“I am so so sorry, Alec. I am… I can’t always help myself. I built this wall around myself thinking—” Her words are at a loss when his lips touch to her own and she can taste the salt from her tears as she kisses him back. Pulling her wrist from his grasp, she moves her arms around his neck, afraid to let go. Though, his lips pull away from her’s and she bites her lip to hopefully slow the tears by focusing on something else. When he mentions that he loves her though, new tears form and stream down her red stained cheeks.
“The only downfall will be because you care, we will all win. Because we have you, we will win.” She sniffles a bit before giving him a soft half smile. “I love you too, Alec.”
“Please tell me you mean that, Brielle…” He says softly as he leans his forehead against her own. “Please tell me that I am not just dreaming here, and that the extra lessons and work I signed myself up for were worth it this week. Tell me that you care… that’s all I want, is for someone to actually care.” He can feel her tears run on his cheeks once more and he sighs as he pulls away. He brings a hand up to cup her face and he wipes her tears with his thumb. “Tell me that this, in the end, will be worth it. Please, tell me that.”
“I don’t know, honestly. I don’t know if I’ll be worth it for you or if I am even good for you. Though, I do know that I do love you. I am so afraid to let you in though… I know you’re not him. I know that, but I need to learn to trust in someone else besides myself.” She feels him wipe away old tears as fresh ones come along. “I will try, for you, I will. I can’t believe… Why did I assume everything wrong about you? Why can’t I just accept that you’re good for me?”
“It takes time… its baffled them, you know? In all these extra lessons… its been the worst week of my life, Brielle, but it was worth it, really. I learned a lot of things, and they didn’t break me down like they wanted. It just left me exhausted, really. Nothing more…”
